Where is your focus? Is your heart and mind on God? Is your trust in HIM? It is HIM who gives us peace and has already given us the mind of Christ Ameeeeeeeen.
If you are consistently in Christ doing HIS will, obeying HIS word, trusting in HIM, suicide will never be your decision even if it’s comes across your mind. God will always send help.
Psalm 116:165
165 Great peace have those who love your law; nothing can make them stumble.
Isaiah 26:3
3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.